Tuesday, June 29, 2010

闷…

在这里做工第二天…很闷!很想念刘家的人…由其是我的哈比仔…不懂他最近怎样叻?唉~老天很残认每次要分开我们…如果没有的话现在的我们应该很开心在玩…这几天令到我想到很多东西…每天爱乎思乱想的我还是一样…百年不变…有时很讨厌我自己…不懂做么…现在我的日子就是在做工…做工上网…跟老公通电话罢了…我不喜欢将的生活…想每天跟哈比一起生活…哎~烦…最近又因为某些东西弄到我很痛苦…可是没人懂…救命啊!不想再有将的生活 )=

Sunday, June 27, 2010

TT

Suddenly my mood become so down ,
I oso don knw why
Mayb i thnk i'm not the best one , n i'm so unless
Keep on thnking thnking .
Wat's wrong wit me ?
So fan )x
Somemore going to cry
feel so stress .
Lik no one can help me )':

Can stop all dis ?
I'm tired.
Pls , who can borrow me a shoulder to have a big cry TT

Thursday, June 24, 2010

TT

经过将多事情后 事情总算有段落了
不懂是好事还是坏事
在这个家我总是开心不起来
为什么 ?
谁可以告诉我 ~
为什么我家人总是不明白我的感受 不明白我真真要的是什么
为什么他们不去明白?
难道真的有酱难明白
还是什么?

一次又一次的催我回家 抓我回家
目的是什么
我真得很累
我撑到很累
我想要争取我自己要的东西都有错?
我真的不明白 ~

今年里发生很多事情在我身上
另一方面我在外面体会到家庭温暖和关怀
我在rawang有很深很开心地回忆
可是现在我的回忆不能再继续下去
我只能把它收藏在内心里 作为最好的回忆
在那里刘家的人对我很好 我很不舍得他们
在那边我的哥哥&阿表全部都对我很很很好
可能我家人会觉得我在外面学坏了
如果我要学坏早就坏了
不用等到现在
我真得很想念他们

现在我学会独立 学会照顾自己
可是没用
在他们心目中我永远度是小孩子
我已经慢慢在长大了
你们有用心去察觉吗
我想自己出去做工 自己出去赚钱
有错?
为什么每一件事你们都要和我安排
我不要酱的生活
对 !
可能别人看到我讲会说我很幸福
说我傻 有个将幸福的家为什么我还要将
可是问题是这堵不是我要的
我知道你们都是对我好
你们有哪一次是认真好好地听我讲?
没有!
我很想好好跟你们沟通 聊天
可是每当我看到你们时我就讲不出话来
我也不想的 我对你们很陌生
不想跟你们讲话 因为我讲什么你们都会觉得是错的
所以我选择什么都不说 让在你们想象中的误会继续误会下去

吸烟喝酒出夜街不回家睡就是很坏很不听话吗
有时我想放松自己 不想回到家面对你们对你们发脾气
你们懂吗?
说什么不开心的事和你们说 说了你们会听的话我早就说了
不用弄到现在我自己将痛苦
有时我在想 我不再这个世界里也许会开心点
我的压力我的痛苦没人懂

我尝试对你们开心对你们笑 可是不是真心的
对不起
我知道我是个不好的女儿
我宁愿你们当作没有了我这个女儿
我不想看到你们不开心
那些痛苦我一个人受完当作赔罪
对不起

今天起
没人抱我睡觉
没人陪我看戏
没人陪我冲凉
没人陪我吃东西
没人陪我吸烟
没人陪我喝酒
没人陪我玩
没人陪我笑
没人陪我去厕所
我感觉很痛苦

因为在我的哈比家 我习惯有他的陪伴
现在 在一瞬间内全部没了
感觉上做人很没有意义
我不想没有他
我不想每当我做这几样东西时 他不在我身边陪伴着我
我的哈比在我身边就好像是我的呼吸
现在没有他在我身边我好像呼吸没有
我不想有酱的感觉
我想你呆在我身旁
能吗?
我不贪心 我只想要你每秒都在我身边陪伴着我
TT

我想你 )':

Friday, May 28, 2010

TT

唉 ~
我在刘家住了差不多有一个月多了
今天我最不想发生的事尽然发生了
我想这是谁也不想发生的吧 TT
可是没得选
我得回去我的恶梦里..
我真的很很很很很不舍得刘家的人!
可是 ~ 看到我家人将我也几心痛一下的

他们尽然再次分开我跟我的肥比
伤心死我 ~
全部哭到 ~
真的很伤心 )x

可能很少下去了
可是死都要回去刘家!
这是我的诺言!

我很想念你们 TT
So fan so fan so fan
So san fu san fu so san fu

Sunday, May 9, 2010

- -

Long time din't come update blog.
Really damn many things happened.
I should accept now what i have,
Finally i lost my family.
No one is understand me )x
I'm unless, no use!

I feel damn samfu TT

Sunday, April 4, 2010

God bless me

Long time din't update my blog - -
Recently really many things happened.
Finally my family & my problem is alomost settle.
But i hope that won't just tahan few days

I really need my family beside me to support me and cheer me up !
I knew that i make my daddy & mummy dissapointed many times.
I just can say sorry to you all.
I know i what also don't tell you you guys will more worried about me,
But me is like this.
I also got think before to change myself
But i can't ! )x
I almost try my best to do it as well

You all working come back tired, pressure already enough
I don't want you all come back home i still keep on giving you all pressure
I don't want see you all sam.fu !
Sorry TT
But now you all know what i want, i know what you all want.
That's it !
Hope i can be happy with you all.

Tonight,
i have to go baibai.
I don't want, because of i scare ;'(
I really damn scare,
I don't want fa dian with you all.
My heart will pain !
Yesterday night i scare until sleep with my mummy =(
Baby until now i just baby time to sleep with you.
Yesterday i feel so worm that you sleep beside me again.
I feel that i still chun zai - ING inside your heart.

Anywhere ~
After today hope my things will everythings settle.
God bless me !

Daddy & mummy I love you. <3


B,
Thanks you keep on staying beside me to cheer me up & keep on support me.
And let my parents know what i want
I feel happy and gam.dong
Thanks !
Iloveyou.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

On tired !

Phew ~
Just came from from B there,
Early in the morning go B house.
Together cook with jiejie give ah.B , liang bai li eat..

After that i chao B take me go swimming ;)
Weeeeeee *
Me, jiejie, B, ahB, liang bai li go swimming lu..
We have fun at there,
GHOShhh ~*
The sun was so BIG !
My leg injude by liang bai li,
Aduii ~
Sakit-NYA *

Now we all is black in colour jor - -
Haa ;D
So tired *
Than together daobao dim.sum go B there eat...
We all already so hungry,
All look super duper tired !
Hahahahahah xDD

Oh man ~
Long time din't do execise - -
This saturday maybe go swimming again with my cousin..
Wah-lao-ye ~


My daddy now call me go study - -
Aiiks TT
Is hard to find work now..
Maybe will with meow go study learn hair guaa ...
Any comment ?



--- ON TIRED ---

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

TIRED )x

Today is my mummy husband birthday - -
That's means my daddy @@
LOL !!
Happy birthday to him !

Today so guai also din't went out,
So fucking lazy - -
Today sleep until 2 somethings only wake up..
Aiiks TT
Wanna go find job lu,
I'm not kindergarden teacher jor noh ;)
Wakakakaka =D

No job is suitable for me @@
What sholud i do ?
Suffer *

Aiiks TT
Nowdays so fan ohh ~
Aduii ><
Don't how what happened going to my life..
Sienz zZz

Keep on tired.
Old already nah,
Aduihai ~

I miss my friend ! XD

Monday, March 15, 2010

What happened to me ?

Today is me and my B 1 month anniversary
Weeeeeee *
Happy happy hapyy ~
Yahuuuuu ~*

But yesterday we nao until got a bit unhappy nuhs,
Sorry TT
Yesterday early in the morning B come fetch me go B there,
Liang bai li lian qiu - -
Aduiii ><
Take good care for yourself ah !
WORRY*
Nowdays my healthy getting lagi BAD )x
LOL !!
Keep wanna pengsan, asma, hard to breath - -
What's going on ?!
TT

Yesterday i dream,
I dream dou me accident - -
Than die jor ==
LOL !!

What happened ?!
No dare to think many.

B, sorry about yesterday.
I just want happy together with you.
That's all..
This is my hope..
LOVEYOU.


* Stop think stupid things,
不想看到不该看到的东西..

Saturday, March 13, 2010

- -

Now result is over - -
I don't know what i going to do next step @@
Aiiks TT
FAN !
Yesterday with meow king many things,
She wanna to learn hair,
Me also, BUT, wanna at level 0 start to work.
Maybe scare work jor, feel like so sam fu. =X
Still thinking i want how

Today is what white colour valentinet day. ( my fei B say ehh)
Anywhere ~
Happy valentinet day B ! ^^
LOL !!
Yesterday work, than drunk 9 jor..
Apa saya buat pun tak tau @@
The next day fei B just keep laughing me
Aduii ><
So bad nah !
Tuesday is me and fei B together 1 month,
like many things want celebrate gam - -
Hahaha xDD
Don't tell you all ahh xP
Bleukk =P
I wanna write many things de,
But semua sudah lupa - -
Haa ;D



I have a suck family !
THEY ALWAYS IS RIGHT,
FOR ME,
I'M ALWAYS WRONG!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

SPM result.

Today finally the result is come out,
My result still macam biasa noh - -
Haa ;D
BM FAIL ! = =
My broken english get D
Aduiiii ><

Work for whole life, XD
Don't know what stud what.
All friend cry because of they can study the college that they want.
Gong hei sai ! ^^
How i get my result,
Wanna start work.
Keep want go hang out.. =]
Haa ;D

Ben lai today go sing k with meow de,
But she fong fei gei jor noh.
But, is alright.
Me and my fei B go back to her pub there minum arak ;)
Really long time din't drink !
Damn guai !
Than call liang bai li come accompany me play.
Although we meet awhile but we enjoy all the time x)
I'm happy * =D

After that want went back home already,
We go buy dim sam & cha xiu bao eat - -
Me and liang bai li bi sai eat cha xiu bao.
Fianlly i WIN ! XD
Bangga-NYA ~*
Hahahahahaha =]
Next time we play again.. :)

Anywhere ~
I'm enjoying my life..
Next tuesday is me and my fei B together one month anniversry..
Wow man ~
So fast hor..
We continue ga.yao baaaa ~
Nothing can nan dao us !


* YOU ! FUCKING OFF IN OUR LIFE !
BUZZ OFF !

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

加油 TO ME ! ^^

Tomorrow is take SPM result "BIG" day,
my mummy asked me izit got hope to get good result ?!
I straight away say NO - -
LOL !!
I not want to hurt her,
Is i don't want give her any hope to me.
I know what i get in my result..
@@

Now just hope can faster concentrate in my work,
If not..........
Aiiks TT
Nothing !
Everythings let it be normal.



* Enjoy my life *



Tomorrow can meet all my friends,
Excited man ~* =]
Where we wanna to go ?
Still thinking..
Hope we can enjoy our day tomorrow ^^


Miss you guys ! XD
B, i miss you TOO ! =3

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

To liang bai li, come here see see and look look ^^

哎哟哟哟哟哟哟哟 ~


死火咯.....
我的两百粒不开心 TT
An zhua hoooo ?
两百粒 ~
想回我们的回忆 ^^
忘记?
I show you ! XD






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是不是很精彩叻?
还有很多的哦..
表给你看先 ~
你笑会给我看先 ;D
SMILEEEEEEEEEEEE =D

好啦,
看到你今天将帅....
给你看我得珍藏*
表眨眼哦..... =P

Buuuuuuuuu jiakkk ~



嗯 ~
还没笑回啊?
好啦,
请你吃你爱吃的点心 - 烧麦 ( paiseh,don't know how to write @@)

这个给你 

好吃吗? 还是大同的比较好吃叻 =)

再请你吃叉烧包


不够饱?
好啦 ~
再请你吃sushi =]

吃料会一直笑的喔,
You boleh tahan?
Okay la...

请你吃你爱吃的ebiko...
 
再请你吃 sushi cake ~

Yeahhhh ~
Happy birthday.. Hahahaha xDD

Got happy a bit mou jekk ?
I will go find you play sooon,
Wait me har....... =D


Remember SMILEEEEEEEEE =D





T-H-E- E-N-D

谢谢收看


You in my heart just like a tatto .

Now i together with a fei B,
Ehh ~
Why i call her fei B if you guy know her you will know why xP

Together with her almost few weeks,
Feeling not bad =]
We will continue together as well as we can.
I know that we like this relationship is not much people will argee,
BUT, if we don't give up they can't do anythings to us.
I belive myself ;D

Nowdays,
Got happiness, got sadness.
Sure like that, if not what call life =X
Ngam mou ~
Star from now, got LIANG BAI LI accompany me play..
Yipiii ~*
I won't be so bored !
Play with her so fun, miss that time when we play together.
XD

I maybe will become kindergarden teacher soon,
Hua-lao-ye ~
Impossible man ~
Unbelive !
Many friend asked me, is that real - -
Hahahahahahahaha ;D
Sure la, guys.
Is real ohh ~

I miss my friends so much,
You guys still okay recently ?
After form 5 we lost contact already - -
Aiiks TT
Damn fucking miss you all la oiii !
I miss my fei b & liang bai li TOO . (x
This thursday take result lu,
hope can see you all la =)

Fei B ah fei B ~
Got guai guai mou lehh..
Weeeeeeee *
Love ya . =3